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Give this one to me. Please.
I'm hungry.

the sweetest thing

Shit.
Sometimes i really feel like i am never going to connect with anyone in this world. I was having a night with my friends and it was too damn good. But i noticed i am still holding back. I still cannot show what my inner being was saying. I cannot shout my desires, dreams and thoughts. And these are people i like. I am comfortable with. But it still does not want to be found. I've been trying so hard you know. The stillness and beauty that life sometimes give you, if you're lucky. It's still drifing. All my life i've tried to see a glimpse of it, even just to breathe it. But there's so much beauty in this world, i feel like it's starting to disappear around them. Like all those beautiful things moving around you and you get lost around them. While you are slowly losing your whole self. I am not asking so much. All i ever want in this life is to see and breathe that beauty. The real one. The one that would not make you feel lost and won't eat your heart up. Is that too much to ask?

oh shit rob yeah

Should I bolt every time I get that feeling in my gut when I meet someone new? Well, I've been listening to my gut since I was 14 years old, and frankly speaking, I've come to the conclusion that my guts have shit for brains.

italia

A lot are talking about this madskill showing of Zidane over Marco Materrazi, no one really knew why the amazing Zizou did it but there is something for sure because you don't just do that in a do or die wordlcup finale and in the last game of your football career. So the question is: what did that punk materrazi said that earned him this amazing headbutt? A lot of speculations came out inluding Marco calling him a" dirty terrorist" or something nasty about his algerian roots. Others said he insulted Zizou's family. They said Materrazi was talking in italian and maybe he was not aware that Zizou can understand him (he played in juve before). Materrazi said his side already and we still haven't gotten anything from Zizou. I can't wait to hear it because i really really believe that it was really something big. Zidane looks laidback and quiet and you do not piss off laidback and quiet men or you'll get fucked and worse, a solid headbutt in front of billions of people watching. I effin hate racists.


Okay. I do not LIKE MATERRAZI. I'm not familliar with him or anything but based on shallow judgement, he looks like A THUG. A street fighter waiting for his final headbutt that he deseved. So yeah, i do not like him at all because i love the french boys but but he gives me this weird shit when i watch him. So i've said before that THAT FREAKIN ITALIAN TEAM IS SEX. Like the other teams, there are only like one or two standout hottie but when you watch the Azzuri, you'll get confused and your hormones will squeal and jump up and down because ALMOST EVERYBODY IN THE TEAM IS DO-ABLE. I love Cannavaro, nesta, del pierro, totti but shitttttt this punk materazzi is killing me. He looks so dirty and bad ,it kills. Lalo na when he's greasy and running in that blue jersey with that hair. I swear..bring me to ITALY! I hate you marco materrazi, you're owning my hormones..but i hate you still.

Cannavaro on top of Marco Materrazi celebrating after their win.

Damn, look at these italian footballers. I swear they give you hallucinations and stomach pain. Why are they so hot? now italia moves up in the list of places to go. It is down to like 15th and now it maybe on the top 5. Hahah. If they weren't so good lookin, maybe i would have cursed them winning this tournament. Seriously. It is that lame.

I realized that i have bombarded this blog with football and footballers. Please forgive me but this only happens every four years and the whole world is tuned in and footballers are one of the most beautiful things that exists in this world. Hahah but seriously, it is a beautiful game. It goes down and under your existensial realm resulting into that beautiful natural high. I'd die to be a good footballer. I'd die to see a live game. I'd die to have one. Haaay so much beauty in this world.

wordlcup 2006

France.
That shit RIPPED MY HEARTS OUT.
My tears started falling after DAVID missed that penalty that caused france to lose the game.
I did support that FRENCH team BECAUSE OF HIM. This worldcup season was very disappointing for him because he could not get a goal and he barely played. And finally he was given a chance in the most important game of his life and he MISSED. I swear after that shot, i died and i wanted to hide and runaway of shame and denial that IT WAS HIM who freakin missed that shot. It was really frustrating for me, i've defended him to everybody and now. He failed. He was the one who missed that shot. Maybe if it was some other player, i would not feel this way. Shit this game and these damn players are killing me.


My David Trezeguet after MISSING that penalty.


and it got worse when i saw him after the italians officially won..he could not even move..and all the french players came up to him and hugged him..that killed me. It's even sad because this might be his last worldcup lalo na with what happened..shit it's so sad. DAVID TREZEGUET , MY HEART WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER AND EVER!!!!!!!!

and yeah i think it was FATE. That shot and him. It was fate.

So much for this worldcup...it was a good one....really changed me in someways..kudos to the azzuri....you guys are sex..and my brasil and france losing.. and germany...it was really emotion overload...and other good moments like my man LUKAS PODOLSKI winning the BEST YOUNG PLAYER AWARD over really unbelievable guys like cristiano ronaldo, lionel messi and cesc fabregas. I love love love you. You're my favorite GERMAN in the world. and ZIDANE..i will not say much anymore.. i love you still...that ART and GIFT that you have is one a kind. it's okay you have the golden ball naman and you will forever be one of the best to ever played this beautiful game.

Whoa..worldcup..see you in four years when i'm rich and 23 already.

Mr. cab

Roanna: i'll tell you something
kamy_bored: What?
Roanna: I like **a*
kamy_bored: Ok
kamy_bored: that's it
kamy_bored: bye

losing

Losing


Ronaldo stands in the corner after the upset of france over brasil


English boys after the 3-1 penalty shootout loss to Portugal.



A sad sad view


Beating hearts.

I saw in CNN how BRAZIL treated the brasillian players. I swear IT WAS HARSH. They were calling THEIR OWN players lazy ass donkeys and nothing but showoffs. Some of the players pictures like my beloved and forever crush Ronaldinho were burned but Ronaldo got most of the beating. My heart bleeds for that man, I SWEAR! He has had enough. He had a decent performance in this world cup naman. But being "Ronaldo" and playing a decent game just does not fit and is not right for most people. So now everybody's killing him. Awww the price you have to pay for fame and success. I still think it's not RIGHT. They should know that this is a game and their players can lose any minute even doing their best. This is football maygad. I know they are sad and they breathe football there in their country but France clearly outplayed them that night and the brasillians should respect that. THEIR BOYS WERE AMAZING, STILL THE BEST ON THE PLANET but that moment they weren't lucky. One game did it yes they should understand that. Haaay maybe they would say i don't even understand a single drop of shame and pain that they are feeling right now but FORM THE BOTTOM OF MY WEAK HEART, I'D DIE TO HAVE THOSE BRASILLIAN BOYS PLAYING FOR MY COUNTRY. WAG NYO SILANG TABUYIN! IF YOU DON'T WANT AKIN NA LANG SILA!

wordlcup and surrealism

This night was what i would call...

NATURAL HIGH!

Shit the day started awful from my stupid class and ugh someone's drama, i thought it was going to be like that all through out. It was really bad to the point that Mary went home na. AND DAMNNNN THE FOOTBALL GAME REDEEMED IT.

There were so many people in there like there's a concert or something haha i've always like NSG naman eh but this was different. really. and we got the best seat in the house pa. We were a minority there because a lot of people were rooting for ENGLAND and me, maika and the iranians are for PORTUGAL hahah. It was MOCKING GALORE! super fun! hahah i really thought we WERE GONNA LOSE. England was good and loaded then the score was 0-0 so we were given what we've asked for HAHA PENALTY SHOOUTOUT! HEAVEN YUN FOR FOOTBALL GEEKS LIKE US! So we were up on or knees as in the place was explosive na ang dami tao even those who were passing lang umupo na sa floot grabeh haha then the BEST MOMENT OF THE NIGHT HAPPENED. HAHAH

BEST MOMENT: We were watching the penalty shootout when OUR BIG SCREEN FREAKIN DIED! hahah someone stepped on it! Instead of going mad and shouting ALL OF US STEPPED ON OUR CHAIRS AND TABLES TAPOS WE RUN DUN SA LITTLE TV'S SA CORNERS HAHAH! stampede haha!!! that was love right in there. Pure honesty of the humanity. naks. But it was really surreal for me. it was all because everybody wanted to see if the goal is gonna go in. Hahah then portugal won. we died.

We were ecstatic dude. It's not the football game. It's the people around and how they are all passionate about this one thing. this one thing. It creates no barrier. All races in there. Sabi nga nila if there is one thing na nagkakaintindihan ang lahat ng races sa mundo: sports yun! hahah We were shouting and shouting when we won and it's like when you look at the people around you, it seems like they somehow connect even if you don't know them. All smiles and high fives kahit na you guys dont know each other. Shit sa sports games lang yan. Passion and heart talaga. Not the poser sports fans ha. It was really beautiful. Beautiful game and beautiful moment.

Hahah Maika and i were like WE SHOULD REALLY DO THIS AGAIN okay. Hahah we will watch the next brasil (if they win okay) game. Semi-finals. Wooot. It's gonna be sad next week pag natapos na yung worldcup. Shit after for years na ulet toh haha.

Games = Natural high