i miss kyle and thom yorke

I MISS KYLE AND THOM YORKE...

I tried to revive Kyle today but he just gave up on me..and Sam said that i have to replace his life power or just buy a new one becaue it would be better..i don't want to replace him.. i love love him. his greenness and my play lists..i miss it.. i realized how i really cannot live without my music.. NO MUSIC NO LIFE! I know it is true because that is what i am feeling right now.. i just came to a gig in school and now i'm in a music state of mind ( lagi naman eh:P), i miss Kyle so much.. I WANT MY RADIOHEAD FIX! I HAVE TO HAVE THAT ATLEAST EVERY NIGHT!

I swear to God...they are one of the best things in this world..one of the best bands ever! ever! Thom Yorke is my mind twin. I think everybody should atleast have ten radiohead songs in their list or else they are missing so much... hahah and if you only know "CREEP" screw you! hahah to tell you, they hate that song! Someone said that if you say that to them, they will be embassed hahah! They are my shrink and crazy pills! They are always on my side!

My radiohead top fix includes high and dry, thinking about you, how to disappear completely, my iron lung, fake plastic trees, karma police, motion picture soundtrack...... oh maygad
i badly miss Kyle and Thom Yorke.

" i don't care if it hurts"

I was just talking to kamy about split second sadness then she said it is attacking her..i told her to run...then that man..it is back! i swear that man will be the death of me! You know when i think of the word DREAM MAN...my mind prints it and it is him! all the darkness, wit and sadness in him. I swear to god i am going to Canada! I will die..i thought i was gonna have a cardiac arrest a while ago.. then it's gone...canada okay? then i grabbed Kyle..my ipod and turned it on then shitttt it does not want to.. HE DIED. died permanently on me. Even Kyle hates me because i'm whiny and abusive..too complicated..
I lost many things today.

worlds' greatest

I am watching an Efren Bata Reyes marathon on his way to owning the world pool 8ball ust a few days ago.
I love watching him.
He reminds me of my dad.
The smile, the aura, the moves, the sillyness.
My dad loves Efren.
I love efren.
He is my dad.
Hahah.

i wanna repair your desire

this is it. I knew it. this is just it. What do we love? pain. I want this.

Four: i love this game, writing, emotions, soul searching, hopeless romantic, athlete, determined, real, sadness, heart

moment

One: football, politics, extreme sports, nature, middle east, basketball, fugliness, gigs, charisma
Two: Guitar, blank stares, black, writing, thrash talking, theater, weirdness, outcast, smart
Three: math geek, hideous clothes, economics, fierce eyes, the F you walk, anime, loser, live in

all the weird things in life. Got it. Here comes the pain.

today

Love
is an act of forgiveness, that for all our imperfections, we are accepted and forgiven.
is about finding courage inside of you, that you did not even know was there.
is a song we sing to those who have forgotten who they are.

desire

A while ago i was talking to my mother when suddenly i wanted to tell her something but i could not AGAIN for the nth time. So i started crying again. Whenever i can't say something to someone or i can't let it out even if it's just saying that you need to get this or just to ask something, no matter how shallow the thing is. If i don't get to say it.. I CRY. It is like an outlet, i don't know and the number of times that i cry goes exactly into my heart forming that sadness that would turn into dreams. Sometimes i feel bad for myself. If i were on the shoes of others and i know someone like ME , i swear my heart will die for that person. I just want to sleep in that cold tiny apartment with my quiet and goofy boy next door who does NOT go clubbing and listen to dugshh dugshh music and we will watch our ball games on late night tv while pigging out on pizza and ice cream and discussing work. GAY!

the devil wears prada

OMG I EFFFIN LOVE THE DEVIL WEARS PRADA!

I haven't read the book yet but the movie was fantabulous!!!!! MERYL STREEP WAS A GODDESS!!! SHE WAS SO GOOD!!!!!!!! I love everything in it! how they put it in that little piece! Newyork, paris, the advertising world (hahah future?), the powertripping(i better get used to this!), the bitches, the clothess and shoesssssss!!!!! heaven! maygad now I DONT WANT TO EAT! maygad!!!! Watching the film made me think of my future like if ever i work in there basta that world ung publishing, copywriting, advertising, magazines! Is it gonna be like that??? i can't work in an environment like that! I HAVE THE BIGGEST HEART IN THE WORLD! I swear I DO! Hindi lang halata! and i cannot take that! mga ganun happening in front of my eyes! i can't keep my mouth and my heart shut! i feel! shett naiyak ako sa ending! hehe GAY!

EMILY BLUNT!
I LOVE THIS BITCH!

"YOU CAN'T GO TO PARIS! YOU EAT CARBS!"

"GUYS, GIRD YOUR LOINS!"

"i'm on this new diet where i don't eat anything and when i feel like i'm about to faint, i eat a cube of cheese."


ADRIAN GRENIER! LIVE IN TAYO!

ohmaygad! i used to have this really HUGE CRUSH ON HIM! He's really a dream boy! he has this boy next door looks that i only realized I FUCKIN WANT IN A MAN! Shit if u watch the movie, i like the set up of Anne hathaway and Grenier.. ung live in sila but Grenier was so different..parang LALAKE talaga in a sense na he's not the guy who goes to clubs and listens to DUGSH DUGSH MUSIC! EEW!!! eew! maygad i hate those guys! DIE! shit Adrian Grenier!!

I realized how that would make me peaceful! yung working in a job that you really like and you are having fun tapos you live together with that guy who's so different and beautiful that has no superficiality. Maygad that alone will make me really happy! please! All you need in life to survive is one person who truly loves you!