" i don't care if it hurts"

I was just talking to kamy about split second sadness then she said it is attacking her..i told her to run...then that man..it is back! i swear that man will be the death of me! You know when i think of the word DREAM MAN...my mind prints it and it is him! all the darkness, wit and sadness in him. I swear to god i am going to Canada! I will die..i thought i was gonna have a cardiac arrest a while ago.. then it's gone...canada okay? then i grabbed Kyle..my ipod and turned it on then shitttt it does not want to.. HE DIED. died permanently on me. Even Kyle hates me because i'm whiny and abusive..too complicated..
I lost many things today.