people are strange

1. The best times you have with your friends involve...
• Conversation and a relaxed vibe
• Partying, lots of drinking, and going crazy

Answer: conversation and relaxed vibe.

and a lot of people that i hang out a lot do not even seem to know this. Some are figuring out and are loving me for it while some are disappearing quickly. I'm in the time of my life where i am trying to CHOOSE not the best but the most worth it of things. Those deserving of love and beauty. There's a struggle but it is getting there.

now

It is hard to wait around for something you know might not happen, but it is harder to give up when you know it is everything you want.

and that's why

You Are 76% Indie

You're a very indie person, and admit it, you look down a little on people who strive to be normal. You'll indulge in a little mainstream pop culture every now and then. But for you, anything not indie is a guilty pleasure!

How Indie Are You?

No classes again

Our commlaw midterms was scheduled last week. We were dreading that day because 1.) it is really a tough subject 2) we do not have much interest in it 3) someone who must not be named But then typhoon Dodong and Chedeng came wednesday and so we're all happy. Exam postponed next thursday. Then yesterday Egay the great fought with nature and so our exam was postponed again. Saved from the evil forces again. Then Kristia and i were talking about how weird and coincidental it was that every thursday, a typhoon would hit us and so we had a thought that someone was helping us with our PESTER POWER. Aside from that lovely intervention, I also believed that God thinks we're really deserving of this postponement. I don't know because we are right and we treat people good. There is no excuse for rudeness! Hahah but we've got gazillion tasks to do next week. REVENGE NGA! hmph...

anyway... back to the one helping us with our pestering, thank you so much. You will forever be included in our daily lives. I know you're just there playing your music while pointing to each one of us while we do silly stuff here. Haha i know you're always laughing specially at me, at what you're discovering..well this is me. Hahah welcome to the world's weirdest, silliest but heartiest x-poses. Hahah i've always liked you as you are. One of my most treasured friends. You deserved to be there with God. Tashakor, my dear friend. I will see you someday.

A thousand splendid suns

"One could not count the moons that simmer on her roofs, or
the thousand splendid suns that hide behind her walls."

I JUST FINISHED READING HOSSEINI'S SECOND WORK OF BEAUTY.
I bawled again like a lonely child. In the first few pages, i was very sentimental because traces of the kite runner would run through my head. Hassan running with his kite, the mountains and the sultan of kabul etc.. scenes that became a part of who i am today. So i was crying the whole time. The book was indeed written for the women of Afghanistan. Mariam is the Hassan in this book. Tariq and his story was lovely too but Mariam is the Hassan here. The one we all want to have in life. This part of the novel was the one that made me really think. That i dreamed of meeting and having a HASSAN in life and now A MARIAM, then i realized that the picture is not yet complete. Amir and Laila exists too. and then it hit me...

What if my whole life i was searching for a HASSAN and a MARIAM so that they would do to me what they've done and what they've been to AMIR AND LAILA when all along.. it's been destined and written that I WILL BE THE HASAAN AND MARIAM! yes my whole life i've been searching for the realness and beauty of Hassan and Mariam when I AM REALLY MEANT TO BE THEM IN THIS LIFE??

It is sad. Sad in the sense that it is possible. Because in life not everybody would get a hassan and mariam. Some would get them but others would have to BE THEM. and it made me sad thinking that if that's what's really my purpose in life and i've been hitting the wrong thing that's why up to now i still do not see a progress because all along i've been following and expecting the wrong path.

I AM NOT COMPLAINING. I just feel like i deserve to GET what i've been giving and expecting from others too. I do not support the idea that in this world you're either the hassan and mariam who will sacrifice and lose everything for others or be amir and laila who gets and benefits from all these sacrifices made my hassan and mariam. I want to be amir and laila. My whole life i've been searching for that certain thing. I am a simple person who longs for simple things. I just feel like i deserve to get it even just a glimpse of it.

Anyway, i am so thankful and happy that people like Khaled Hosseini exists. He is really giving his country, Afghanistan a big favor by writing all these beauties. Now i see Afghanistan very differently. Even the whole middle east. I swear i am going to tour that beautiful continent someday.

I think one of the biggest contributions Hosseini has done in his life is that everytime i look at Afghan or middle eastern people now, i see Hassan and Mariam..and so i smile.

heavier than heaven

Nothing beats not sleeping, killing yourself for an exam with long ass stack of confusing readings at the same time worrying for this saturday's plan and next week's exam, looking fugly and smashed thinking of the future and ending it all by singing your heart out with Kurt, Liam, Fab etc. just before you take your shower to begin another long day. Music is indeed natural high. My books, music, art and films are feeding my weak and flaccid heart.

tashakor

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I wrote an entry ages ago how much i love love this book. It ripped my hearts out. I want my Hassan! but i have a feeling the movie is going to be f***ed up like all those other books turned into movies. Grrrrr the book version will always be better. I just wish they don't change the story just to make it a freakin happy ending.

I cannot wait and i still do not have a copy of Hosseini's second novel. A THOUSAND SPLENDID SUNS which i think will also be LOVE!!! Title pa lang eh..haaay i miss reading... grrr IMC!!

the boy from the south

The dreamy thinker. Music. Colors. Multimedia. Alice in wonderland. Walking. In need.
The people that you never get to love again and again and again.

time

In moments like this..i feel like i need more and more time to do all the things, dreams, wants, needs and desires. The good thing is that i'm discovering new things and people that are really worth it. Though i'm still struggling with the spiritual side..i'm trying to really see the nice side of every little thing. I wish i could do this when i look at people too..trying..trying..waiting.

Nice sight? lol
Expect more KG is definitely the best power forward in this generation shit... hahah just reminding people :P Interesting season..he's definitely gonna tear up the east since they don't really have strong big men in there that can match up with KG's ghettoness. I've always liked the celtics jersey..the color.. the font...style..so championish. Hahah i hope they lose big time though :) i miss basketball