the people that you never get to love again and again

It is not new that i get attracted to weird, eccentric, musician-artist types, and most of the time depressed and twisted too. And my normal friends would often ask why but i could not give them any answer, because i do not even know why and even if i tell and explain it to them, they would not give me a chance anyway.

I got a hold of Kurt Cobain's biography "heavier than heaven" by Charles Cross last week and i have to say that this book is prolly one of the most mind boggling shit i've read. I cannot not stop and pause after reading a few pages, then i'm back then the cycle happens again. I love Kurt , every sad little pieces of him. Then i stumbled upon this statement that one of his girlfriends have said about him..

"Kurt made women want to nurture and protect him. He was a paradox in that way, because he also could be brutally and intensely strong; yet at the same time he could appear fragile and delicate."

I got my answer. Then i started smiling and loved Kurt even more. Kurt, if only i had the chance to meet you, i would have given you the love that you've been asking for.