long time eh?

Have not updated in a long time, been busy with school, football, boys and dreaming.

School: Can i shout READINGS!!!! I'm bombarded with gazillion readings i swear. Like as if it is something new huh? haha i love love to read but not these boring technical shits for comm stat. I am really not feeling that subject i swear. I love my marketing man class though. My instructor, Ms. Shirin is amazing. and physics? maygad i cannot believe some people actually choose to study that..it's one of the most boring things in this world. My northam was err... disappointing..i wanted to take her and learn..i really want to KARIR that subject you know. I want to learn about cultures. Learning japan now..they are weird and cute and my modern literature class..guess what!!! we are studying TO KILL A MOCKINGBIRD!!! that's like my top 3 all time greats!!! i love love love that masterpiece too pieces! hahah it's like a bible that i have to read every year. read it. it's love.

The BRASIL -GHANA game is LIVE right at this moment and BRASIL currently up 2- 0 via Ronaldo (5') and Adriano (46'). If there is one game i'd like to see live, this would be one of it. I love brasil but i love Ghana too. I wasn't familliar with them before the world cup started but i fell in love watching them, they are inspiring and determined. THEY ARE THE ONLY AFRICAN COUNTRY LEFT IN THE WORLDCUP and it's SAD to see them go. I've seen this clip where their players went home in Ghana for a visit and it's overwhelming really how their countrymen are so supportive. I LOVE LOVE THE AFRICANS! I cheer for them when i watch them. They are so inspiring and happy. It's beautiful. It's sad but it looks like there will be no african nations left after this. Props to BRASIL. woot.

Still waiting for the FRANCE - SPAIN GAME. OFFCOURSE I'M ROOTING FOR FRANCE!!! My beautiful strikers..Trezeguet and Thierry Henry should win it!!! Honestly i think SPAIN has this in the bag but there's still this tiny hope. SPAIN are freakin good. I like them too but not as much as France. I love CESC FABREGAS and RAUL...but i want to see my beautiful french strikers again so they should win this.

I don't like England and Germany. Everybody wants to see them in the finals. NOOO! I want the africans and South americans to win!!! I don't like germany but i love love love LUKAS PODOLSKI (okay exception)!!! He's good and DETERMINED!!! shett 3 goals in his first international competition! anobah i don't like blondies like him pero he is really something! haha

Talking about hotness..if you want to watch football to see hot guys, i suggest you watch an ITALY GAME! Those AZZURIS are hot! Seriously, WALANG PANGET! hahah like everybody there is d0-able! special mention totti, nesta, toni and a lot lot more! :P

I still cannot believe i can't watch games live. I swear if only our country......OK I WILL STOP ABOUT THAT PHILIPPINES AND FOOTBALL ISSUE OK...hahah i just wish our country would experience what the world is feeling right now. It's beautiful. In Brasil, they even close their stock exchange and re-sched the death of their prisoners when there's a game. In africa, kids play football in the streets even their hungry..it's not because of basketball that our country is not good in football ok? PUT THAT IN YOU FREAKIN MIND. I love basketball too, it is also a beautiful game. Pwede naman tayong magbasketball at football diba? there is no problem with that so don't blame basketball why our country is poor in football. It's the organizers or the people behind it here in our country, it is not the game's fault. Sayang kung may exporsure at magandang program land ang football. Siguro hindi na tayo pang #190 + sa rankings in the world diba. Ang dami pa naman magagaleng na players dito. Haaay . Pero i still can't help it not to feel bad when i see the people in other countries in a world cup frenzy. I swear NATURAL HIGH TALAGA YUN!

Shit I SWEAR I SHOULD WATCH THIS ONE LIVE NEXT 2010!!!! or if not..2014 or 2016 hahha siguro naman i'm rich enough to afford it na noh? and old na ren pero i really should. hahahah i swear I WILL WATCH A WORLDCUP BEFORE I DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hahaha shit i sound like a crappy sports person up there haha. I can't helpt it football is love!!!

Hahah i crush this certain guy. He's orgasmic i swear. One word? someday! haahah :P

Friends...

I'M SURROUNDED BY POSERS EVERYWHERE.
Shit i want to just get stuck in an island with a sensible person and talk about football, basketball, politics, literature and africa. I swear to God, i am trying my best but i really have low tolerance for morons and poseurs.

Rafael Nadal

I LOVE RAFAEL NADAL!

He just defended and won the French Open Roland Garros 2006! He defeated Roger Fererer 1-6, 6-1, 6-4, 7-6..everybody loves Roger and we want him to win his grandslam but i loveee Rafa... He's very nice to watch...so young and graceful...KING OF CLAY!!!!!!!! And we are both 19 and he's from spain...oh he turned 20 last week..but still.. ..ohmaygad i love him and Marat Safin..my tennis boys...i almost suffocated when i saw rafa biting that trophy.. hormones..shit i am overdosing this blog with sports and athletes haha what can i do..i love them.

Football hotties part I

Since it's the football season and they are one of the most beautiful things in this world. I have to d do this. The hottest testosterones playing that beautiful game.

1. Cristiano Ronaldo - Portugal, manchester united
--->He looks so perfect sometimes he's GROSS. Like eeew you know like sometimes he has gay tendencies already. He's so effin vain too and he knows he's beautiful. Portuguese guys hate him for being too damn goodlookin and every girl in the world who knows football wants a piece of Ronaldo's tatas. Where the hell did he get those genes???









2. Kaka - Brazil, AC Milan
---> The brazillian boy wonder. The best looking guy in that wonderful brazil team. Did not like him at first but he grows on you. He has weird fierce eyes like they are too cute and at the sometime powerful. And come on how in the world can you not love a guy as good lookin as he is and at the same time named KAKA?





3. David Trezeguet - France, Juventus
---> I WANT TO MARRY THIS FRENCH GUY. I seriously want to have his babies. He's not the best looking of all but he's on the top of my book. I mean i know im biased with kalbo and tan looking guys but there's this stillness in him that i want like it's not too much and he's still a guy. I like like like looking at him and how his features came to exist into one. I love love him....coucou.





4. Thierry Henry - France, Arsenal
---> Come on we all know it. HENRY IS SEX. Nuff' said.





5. Ilhan Mansiz - Turkey
--> Turkish delight. I don't know anything about Turkey aside from yilmaz bektas and istanbul, well atleast another thing to love about that country. ILHAN MANSIZ IS HOT!





Okay that;s all for now. Let's relax our hormones first. Mine is too tired. This is just one reason to love that beautiful game. More testosterones next time.

dreams

I promise myself i am gonna study hard and GET REALLY RICH and i'll go to brasil, portugal, argentina, spain, angola, iran, spain, mexico and morocco and the whole damn central america. I want culturesss!!!! i want to breathe theirs! shitt that's like food, you know thinking about that. I swear to God i am gonna get rich and i'll use my money to fulfill this even for four months and then i'll come back..i do not care if i get empty handed after basta i'll make it happen. Shit i think about his everytime i wake up in the morning and that for the fact itself means i have to do it.

wordlcup and footballers

I have 30 units this sem. Watch me die. I'm gonna one of the most boring persons in the next 6 months. Stupid online enlistment. I hate those fuckin reg, makes me wanna run for SEB and fire all those gee dee bees in there. Talk about manners? huh atleast just for 5 seconds.

FOOTBALL..nagkakagulo yung buong mundo ngayon dahil sa worldcup tapos yung pilipinas..wala.. boo.. stupid country..ughh i don't want to talk about that overdose of basketball shit...i hate basketball now.. my boys were all eliminated..and i was arguing with my brother about football and the Philippines..he said it could never happen..i mean even if daw..i told him no..andami kayang magagaleng dyan...problema lang walang support,fund at exposure..kung gawin kaya nilang parang basketball.. i'm sure may mangyayari..sayang yung mga talent..


Prediction...shempre brasil...with argentina and germany close. Pero ang unpredictable, a lot of things can happen...i just want to see it..boo solar..they have it in paperview pero ang mahal.. and i don't want to pay..let's see what happens with the venues though..I want to see the hotties!!! footballers are sex!

Kaka, morientes, owen, rio ferdinand, del pierro, aimar, christiano ronaldo, henry, mansiz ....shett ilhan mansiz...and trezeguet..oh my god David trezeguet!!! i can't look at you and not cringe..i want to have your babies!!!!! too bad some of them won't play..and can i just say i love ronaldhino.. kahit na he's not very nice to look at..he's the sweetest thing... i love him.. and now let's put show some testosterone


damn these french hotties




i want! shett my hormones..



ooh footballers = testosterone


i've been bumming around lately..being fat and lazy..i'm so charging for school which will start in two weeks...i've finished lost, grey's anatomy and a lot lot more... heheh productive break.. i love lost but grey's anatomy is love..i swear i always get this giddy feeling after every episode..i mean with lost.u want to look at sawyer and jack and see the next one but that's it..with grey's..i'm like happy and shit hahha and looking forward to it..ang gaan kasi panoorin.. and shit yeah i want go to morocco!!!!

my heart

BWISEEETTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
Shit IF I ONLY KNEW. I HATE IT. God....it is really not good to be obsessed with something.. it's going to kill you big time in the end...fuck i hate it. bwiset. bwiset ka. fuckkkkkkkkkkkkk i am gonna win okay. shett

Dreams and dreaming

This guy i know said he's gonna marry me and i should wait for him. His reason was so funny but i would not tell you. He said "getting" that "reason" is like a dream come true for him. So yeah i am associated with his "dream" and i find that really odd because dream is one of my favorite words and i highly use that when i think of all the things that would fulfill my whole existence. It's also so cute how men think highly of that "reason" like him. Now atleast i think he's interesting. Hahah i want to talk to him 1.) about dreams and dreaming and 2.) for him to feed my ego again haha.

crash and lost..

Today, my heart struggled again.

I could not concentrate the whole day, the thought kept playing on my mind and behind it was all the preparations i would do, to again offcourse, get rid of it. To take it away and just move on without it killing me. There will be next year but damn..shit okay i don't want to talk about it. Okay maybe tomorrow or next week.

To save the day, my dad and i had a movie marathon. We watched crash and that i swear is an excellent film. Definitely worthy of that oscar win. I cried somewhere in the movie. That's getting redundant in this journal..i know! It talks about discrimination, love and its simplicity. And you would not meet anyone who's as sensitive as i am when it comes to races, discriminations, prejudice and shit. I don't know but i have this thing for you know unity with all the different people in the world. I mean mexicans (you're expecting this i know but this is a different story, no filthyness:P), arabs, persians and blacks. I love issues about them. Like i always find beauty in them whenever i encounter one. Not pimping myself ha but really i am the least closest thing to racists! i swear i used to dislike pakistani's and stuff when i was younger but now, i sort of had this openness to them and i always find something beautiful or atleast positive from them. Like i always root for the iraqi or the israeli. It is so weird and don't even ask me about blacks. I once had a thought that i am really black trapped in a pacific islander's body. Maybe it's exposure na rin like one of my best friends right now is persian and indians as well, they're really amazing. Basta it's weird kasi people lalo na the community that i grew up with from my highschool and stuff, when they hear middle east people, they cringe or basta iba yung reaction when you say french, british or americans. Pero sa aken ngayon they're all the same.

I also had a LOST overdose. I SWEAR THAT SHOW IS LOVE. Everybody's been pimping that show and i thought it was overrated lang seeing it finally from the start and as in complete.. it's love, i swear. I finished three discs as in 9 episodes from 5pm to 12am, just now. and yeah yeah..SAWYER IS SEX but JACK HAS THIS WEIRD EFFECT ON ME..hahah siguro nga..women dig doctors..talaga..haha pero guess who my favorite character is so far? as in hindi ko ineexpect.. hahah you're right OMG I LOVE SAYID! My first emotional experience with LOST so far was his story. As in his nadia and being an iraqi republican guard. That choosing over love and duty always gets me and i do not know why. I had a nostalgic moment while watching his sepia ladden love story. While watching, this thought of a man shouting "I will find you" to the woman he's about to leave and with no assurance that they're gonna see each other again kept playing in my head. I've seen it somewhere movie or what basta lagi pumapasok sa isip ko yan scene na yun. Not clear kung sino basta man and woman tapos yun yung sinasabi. SHit i am such a sap. I can't wait to continue.

LOST HOTTIES

but i love Sayid's story.

movies, tv whoreness and salinger

My favorite films. Haha i loved because they're really good, some had this weird effect on me ever since, and most of them made me cry and yes even the supposed comedy ones. If you haven't seen a lot in my list, GO SEE THEM NOW! hahah no seriously i think they are all worth 2 hours of your time. :P

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Speaking of films...

The da vinci code was a disappointment..well yeah it was boring..a lot of dragging parts..maybe because i've read the book and it's so much better than the movie in terms of excitement and stuff but yeah maybe because i've read it that's why it did not have that much effect.. i love Audrey Tatou though! i love that woman!

I also bought the first season of LOST. Ok watch my couch potatoness take over! marathon! i'm buying the whole set of sex and the city, arrested development, house, oc, desperate housewives and grey's anatomy. HAHAH money! I wanted to see all these but they don't show it here and i have no time to catch up with their scheds. I AM SUCH FILM/TV WHORE! hahah it's good. Exercises my brain and entertainment galore offcourse.

Chapter 27

This is the upcoming film about John Lennon's killer , Mark chapman which will be played by Jared leto. The film also includes Lindsay Lohan as the friend of the killer. Chapter 27? yes very much related to one of my favorite books of all time, the catcher in the rye by my badass idol writer J.D Salinger. The book has 26 chapters and so 27 as the continuation of it because according to the filmmakers..Chapman was in a "holden caulfield" state of mind when he murdered Lennon and he was carrying the book when it happened? which also resulted into the book being banned in the U.S. hahah it's cute but holden is nice, he is no killer. i crush that boy so much.

How come that book is always associated with darkness, suicide, depression, psychological disorder, chaos and killing? it's a coming of age story of a 16 year old boy who's sick and tired of this world. Sounds familiar huh? yes we all have this "holden" moments. I remember reading that book for the first time and i was so owned and shit, i thought i was reading my thoughts. I swear it's like i wrote that book. The angst and the craziness haha me and holden should meet someday i swear. A friend once told me that happy and "square" people should not read that book because they will find it odd and horrible. Hahah my love for that piece of art is beyond description! I swear happy and "Square" people depresses me. I swear. They really do.

Do you know Elizabeth Wurtzel? she is a badass gifted writer from harvard and she wrote prozac nation. I wanna meet her!