this made my day hahah

a.j: YOU ARE GOING TO DIE
roanna: ano
roanna: dali
a.j: I found my death letter... the one when you die.. chuvaness.. HHAHAHAHA NAMATAY AKO I was 15...ang drama
a.j: sheeet
a.j: i burned it!
a.j: kung kani kanino ako nag I I LOVE YOU
a.j: whahaha
roanna: ANO
roanna: WHY DO U HAVE THAT
a.j: hahaha
a.j: as in i dont know
a.j: natatawa ko
a.j: puro wrong grammar pa
roanna: BAKIT KA NAGSULAT NUN
roanna: MAG SUSUICIDE KA BA
a.j: may mga hindi pa ko mga kilala na nakasulat dun
a.j: hindi naman suicide letter noh
a.j: isang gabi i woke up crying i decided to right a letter kasi i realized daw na life is short
a.j: whahaa
a.j: i was saying goodbye and thank you to everyone
a.j: i swear
a.j: its soo SAD.. BUT REALLY FUNNY
a.j: my god buti na lang ako nakakita nun
roanna: a.j. marquez: isang gabi i woke up crying i decided to right a letter kasi i realized daw na life is short
roanna: THIS IS THE GAYEST
roanna: hahaha
a.j: ahhaha
a.j: STOP QOUTING ME
a.j: hahaha
roanna: I WANNA READ IT
roanna: BRING IT
roanna: PLS
a.j: I swear the letter is so gay asa colorful stationary with rainbows
a.j: hahhaa
a.j: I burned it already
a.j: nakakatakot baka sino makakuha nun noh
roanna: hahha
roanna: FUCK U
a.j: puro wrong grammar pa
roanna: I WANNA SEE IT
a.j: may time pa i wrote it 3am
roanna: ANUBAH
a.j: hahaha
roanna: IS IT LONG?
a.j: wala na
a.j: binuzz kita kagabi eh nung nakita ko
a.j: hahha
a.j: oo noh hand written 4 1/2 pages
a.j: as in may to my parents... chuvaness.... my friends.. ganyan ganyan
a.j: hahaha
a.j. marquez: hahaha
roanna: HAHAH
roanna: OMG
roanna: NOVEL YAN
roanna: HAHAH
roanna: ANO NAKASULAT
roanna: NAMATAY KA?
roanna: while reading
a.j: hindi if i die
roanna: ano pinagsasabi mo
a.j: i would just like to tell you that i love u.. im gay. chuvaness
a.j: i remember this that
a.j: achuchu
roanna: hahah IM GAY
roanna: WINNER
a.j: noh
a.j: eto pa ah i enumerated lahat ng crush ko dun simula grade 3
a.j: hahaha
a.j: meron pa kong mga revelation kung kelan ko nalaman i was gay


I LOVE MY FRIENDS!!!!! HAHAH

it's love

I'm currently listening to Radiohead's latest album In rainbows and i freakin love it! I wanted to get the CD but it's too damn expensive but i'll get it someday. I'm planning to sort of have a Radiohead shrine in this certain part of my house with all their albums etc. They are my favorite band in the world. Their music sounds like my heart beating. Exactly the way it is. Radiohead is just love.

PLANS......
1. Finish school.
2. Buy a new kickass camera
3. Travel and breathe a culture
4. Work?
5. Look into taking up my masters

I'm going to get rich. I need to get Rich. I want to be like my astig Prof. Ichay bulaong, awesome awesome individual. We all think she's a role model. We want to be like her, even AJ! I want to own a bookstore with a coffee shop someday but this is when i'm already settled and ready to have a family because prior to that i'll prolly work my ass of somewhere, be a busy woman , always on the go, i will take many pictures using my camera, i will do try to do art, travel and experience cultures, do something worthwhile, be active in an NGO that i really believe in, i will write, go to the most beautiful places here in my lovely country, continue to love and love and have faith.

See i have such simple dreams.

career

My schedule this semester:

Monday:
9-10:30 am - Accounting (challenge haha)

Tuesday:
6:00 - 9:00pm - Brand communications

Wednesday:
9-12:00pm - Interactive Marketing (pressure)
2:30 - 5:30pm -Communication Ethics
Thursday:
9-10:30am - Accounting again
1:30-4:30pm - Internal marketing and management
6-9:00pm - Brand comm again

Friday:
4:30-7:30pm - Contact management and channels planning

Saturday:
9:00 - 12:00 - Marketing communication research

My Last semester in college.
Study like i've never studied before.
Championship na.
My GWA last sem was 2.14 and i need all the miracles in the world to get a 2.00 or better to make it to the fifth year. I need to pull up a series of 1.5 and 1.75 to do this. Goodluck to me. My heart is nervous but my mind is waiting.

"I'd rather cry over school work rather than a guy"
-------->AJ "fierce"

a lovely reminder from a friend's IM stat message

We mortals have many weaknesses. We feel too much, hurt too much, or too soon we die. But we do have a chance of love.

-Elizabeth trailer

first semester of my last year in college: crucial times

Semestral break.

Back to my bum life.
I have a love and hate relationship with this time of the year. I love the fact that this is the time when i filter and recap everything that often leads me to panic and get back on track. Focus. And also this time reminds me what i have to do and what i should not. I hate it because it's also the time when i realize all my horribleness as a person and citizen. I have so much to do not only for myself, for my loved ones and for the world. Grrrr, now i'm in a hurry.


THE SEM THAT WAS BEYOND DESCRIPTION.
I think i need to write a book for that sem because i can't try to put a few words that will describe it without me feeling guilty that i'm not giving justice to that special semester of my life. I love that sem. I hurted. I loved. I felt. I thought. I appreciated. I learned. I hated. I respected. I WAS ALIVE AND I FELT IT.

september to october

This is the time when i say "if you're not very good , then you are bad." It is the last month of first sem fourth year and it is going to be insane. I have to do well not because i just have to it is because i've given everything for this lately and failing it would mean i am worth nothing. As how they put it "wala na natira saken, kaya itong natitira na toh, yung school i have to be more than good". Watch me cry in the next few days.

people are strange

1. The best times you have with your friends involve...
• Conversation and a relaxed vibe
• Partying, lots of drinking, and going crazy

Answer: conversation and relaxed vibe.

and a lot of people that i hang out a lot do not even seem to know this. Some are figuring out and are loving me for it while some are disappearing quickly. I'm in the time of my life where i am trying to CHOOSE not the best but the most worth it of things. Those deserving of love and beauty. There's a struggle but it is getting there.

now

It is hard to wait around for something you know might not happen, but it is harder to give up when you know it is everything you want.

and that's why

You Are 76% Indie

You're a very indie person, and admit it, you look down a little on people who strive to be normal. You'll indulge in a little mainstream pop culture every now and then. But for you, anything not indie is a guilty pleasure!

How Indie Are You?

No classes again

Our commlaw midterms was scheduled last week. We were dreading that day because 1.) it is really a tough subject 2) we do not have much interest in it 3) someone who must not be named But then typhoon Dodong and Chedeng came wednesday and so we're all happy. Exam postponed next thursday. Then yesterday Egay the great fought with nature and so our exam was postponed again. Saved from the evil forces again. Then Kristia and i were talking about how weird and coincidental it was that every thursday, a typhoon would hit us and so we had a thought that someone was helping us with our PESTER POWER. Aside from that lovely intervention, I also believed that God thinks we're really deserving of this postponement. I don't know because we are right and we treat people good. There is no excuse for rudeness! Hahah but we've got gazillion tasks to do next week. REVENGE NGA! hmph...

anyway... back to the one helping us with our pestering, thank you so much. You will forever be included in our daily lives. I know you're just there playing your music while pointing to each one of us while we do silly stuff here. Haha i know you're always laughing specially at me, at what you're discovering..well this is me. Hahah welcome to the world's weirdest, silliest but heartiest x-poses. Hahah i've always liked you as you are. One of my most treasured friends. You deserved to be there with God. Tashakor, my dear friend. I will see you someday.

A thousand splendid suns

"One could not count the moons that simmer on her roofs, or
the thousand splendid suns that hide behind her walls."

I JUST FINISHED READING HOSSEINI'S SECOND WORK OF BEAUTY.
I bawled again like a lonely child. In the first few pages, i was very sentimental because traces of the kite runner would run through my head. Hassan running with his kite, the mountains and the sultan of kabul etc.. scenes that became a part of who i am today. So i was crying the whole time. The book was indeed written for the women of Afghanistan. Mariam is the Hassan in this book. Tariq and his story was lovely too but Mariam is the Hassan here. The one we all want to have in life. This part of the novel was the one that made me really think. That i dreamed of meeting and having a HASSAN in life and now A MARIAM, then i realized that the picture is not yet complete. Amir and Laila exists too. and then it hit me...

What if my whole life i was searching for a HASSAN and a MARIAM so that they would do to me what they've done and what they've been to AMIR AND LAILA when all along.. it's been destined and written that I WILL BE THE HASAAN AND MARIAM! yes my whole life i've been searching for the realness and beauty of Hassan and Mariam when I AM REALLY MEANT TO BE THEM IN THIS LIFE??

It is sad. Sad in the sense that it is possible. Because in life not everybody would get a hassan and mariam. Some would get them but others would have to BE THEM. and it made me sad thinking that if that's what's really my purpose in life and i've been hitting the wrong thing that's why up to now i still do not see a progress because all along i've been following and expecting the wrong path.

I AM NOT COMPLAINING. I just feel like i deserve to GET what i've been giving and expecting from others too. I do not support the idea that in this world you're either the hassan and mariam who will sacrifice and lose everything for others or be amir and laila who gets and benefits from all these sacrifices made my hassan and mariam. I want to be amir and laila. My whole life i've been searching for that certain thing. I am a simple person who longs for simple things. I just feel like i deserve to get it even just a glimpse of it.

Anyway, i am so thankful and happy that people like Khaled Hosseini exists. He is really giving his country, Afghanistan a big favor by writing all these beauties. Now i see Afghanistan very differently. Even the whole middle east. I swear i am going to tour that beautiful continent someday.

I think one of the biggest contributions Hosseini has done in his life is that everytime i look at Afghan or middle eastern people now, i see Hassan and Mariam..and so i smile.

heavier than heaven

Nothing beats not sleeping, killing yourself for an exam with long ass stack of confusing readings at the same time worrying for this saturday's plan and next week's exam, looking fugly and smashed thinking of the future and ending it all by singing your heart out with Kurt, Liam, Fab etc. just before you take your shower to begin another long day. Music is indeed natural high. My books, music, art and films are feeding my weak and flaccid heart.

tashakor

OMG OMG OMG




I wrote an entry ages ago how much i love love this book. It ripped my hearts out. I want my Hassan! but i have a feeling the movie is going to be f***ed up like all those other books turned into movies. Grrrrr the book version will always be better. I just wish they don't change the story just to make it a freakin happy ending.

I cannot wait and i still do not have a copy of Hosseini's second novel. A THOUSAND SPLENDID SUNS which i think will also be LOVE!!! Title pa lang eh..haaay i miss reading... grrr IMC!!

the boy from the south

The dreamy thinker. Music. Colors. Multimedia. Alice in wonderland. Walking. In need.
The people that you never get to love again and again and again.

time

In moments like this..i feel like i need more and more time to do all the things, dreams, wants, needs and desires. The good thing is that i'm discovering new things and people that are really worth it. Though i'm still struggling with the spiritual side..i'm trying to really see the nice side of every little thing. I wish i could do this when i look at people too..trying..trying..waiting.

Nice sight? lol
Expect more KG is definitely the best power forward in this generation shit... hahah just reminding people :P Interesting season..he's definitely gonna tear up the east since they don't really have strong big men in there that can match up with KG's ghettoness. I've always liked the celtics jersey..the color.. the font...style..so championish. Hahah i hope they lose big time though :) i miss basketball

IMC LIFE.

My last two weeks was purely occupied by IMC LIFE, a good friend of mine and my struggle to get some sleep. Last week has been crazy. Had major presentations and gazillion requirements the whole week. 4 of us cried last friday, which was the big day. It was so funny how i embarrased myself in the comm. lab because Marcus, my laptop was not cooperating and the third world printer in the comm. lab was being a bitch. But i was able to pass my paper though kahit na sabog. Haay my commsoc is so kawawa. I swear. I will really have to do something and strive more and more effort for that subject. It is a good one. I'm just really irresponsible sometimes. Comm.law has been haunting my academic life. I AM SO SCARED OF THAT SUBJECT. Like i dread everything about it. Now i'm really catching up because i missed our first quiz worth 50 freakin points because i was too tamad and sabog to deal with her and that subject.

But despite the adversity in the academic side..my social life has been good especially with my blockmates.. i love my SCL.

My IMC Principles presentation was okay. Could've been better but i expected worse. We worked hard for this

I Love my CONSUMER INSIGHT CONTI'S presentation and Groupmates... i love being with kristia(idol..Miss IMC) and Check..Jem and Jc are cool too.. they're cool geeks so it was fun.. haay sana lahat ng presentations namen ganito kadali and kasaya ang kagaling.

That long hiatus...

readings

Sorry for the vacation. I've been busy living Dr.K's "you're gonna study like you've never studied before" life. My life has been nothing but ENDLESS PILES OF THICK ASS READINGS. and this will continue until i graduate. Echoing my brother's endless mockery "Hahah magbabasa ka na lang habang buhay!"Comm law is officially my hatest IMC subject. Okay now i know i won't take up law. So much for that idea...atleast being in love with it. Now i know it is clear.

My other majors has been lovely. Tiring but really paying off. Atleast now i'm getting a slight gist of what i got myself into and it has been good lately.

Thierry Henry is now in Barcelona. So much for my arsenal. I like barca but henry and arsenal is different. Well good luck.

Have you seen transformers? now is that a lovely movie or what? i love love love that film. Loved every minute. Shia is wonderful. Megan is hotshit. Sucre! hahah and the robots were wonderful too.. now i'm interested in knowing those stuff.. i want a bumble bee.

Well the movie ending made me think again. Like pan's labyrinth..the film mindfucked me again. Optimus prime i love you. heheh.

Someone mentioned that Optimus Prime reminds her of Tim Duncan? hahah now i know why i love both.